Thursday 31 March 2011

The way home

The sun was rising over the tall buildings to the east. I could not only feel the morning dew now, but I could see the drops sparkling in the morning sun. Everything felt fresh and alive, and the smell was only sickening me. I had been out drinking with a few friends of mine the night before. We had camped in the same patch of woods I was now sitting in. We had come out here in three different cars. There was only one car left now. And I was the only person left. My friends had decided to go into town at around two a.m. I didn't feel the same urge to go as they did. I was enjoying myself out here in the woods. They had taken most of the booze and left me with a six pack. It was all right though, because by the time they had left I was already quite drunk. The reason I felt so depressed wasn't that my friends had left me alone here in the woods, it was because I knew I had to go home eventually, and explain myself to my parents. So, I was just sitting here. Sobering up and thinking about what I was going to say to my parents. I didn't want to show up very early, although I wanted to be home before dinner. Dinner time usually calms a family down, or at least I think so.
I hadn't gotten any sleep but I wasn't feeling too bad. My shirt smelled of sweat and my shoes were destroyed. I vaguely remember crawling over a rocky outcrop a bit further up the hill. Back then I had still been enjoying myself. In general, a twenty-two year old should have no problems coming home drunk, or after a night of drinking, but with my parents it was different story. My father had been an alcoholic two thirds of his life and he had finally managed to sober up. And once he was sober he even took up a religion. My mother was very pleased, because she did not have to take all the crap my father would give her when he was drunk. I think I preferred my dad being a raging drunk. That way he used to leave me alone and let me do whatever I want. Now, the only thing that gets him going is when he hears about me drinking alcohol. And, of course he would find out about tonight. I had spilt beer in his car, I had been up the whole night and he knew I was going out with friends.
It was approximately 9 a.m. now and I felt like getting out of this place. I removed all the empty bottles from my father's car and got in. At first I just sat there, thinking about where I should go, then after five or ten minutes I started the engine and drove off. I was heading for a park I knew. A lot of good looking women walk through there on their way to university or whatever. It didn't take me very long to get there, traffic was light. I parked the car in a abandoned car park behind some office buildings and walked around to the park. On the way I stopped at a newsagent's to pick up some cigarettes. I then proceeded to the park. I looked at my watch and saw that it was close to ten a.m. Once I entered the park I bought a hot-dog from a vendor and found myself a nice bench to sit down on. I wasn't a very big park, but there was a pond in the centre, which was a very nice touch. There were ducks in the pond. There were three or four trees I could see and about a dozen benches like the one I was sitting on. The park was full of people going to work or school. I have no idea why it was so busy at ten in the morning. Maybe because it was Friday, I don't know. The first five minutes sitting on the couch I devoted to eating my hot-dog and smoking a cigarette.
An old lady interrupted my peace. "You shouldn't be doing that young man, it's bad for your health!" said the old lady. She was wearing a dress that looked like it was as old as she was. Her hair was long, and I could see bare patches on her head where there was no hair at all. Despite her ragged looks, she did come over as a nice enough person.
"I know ma'am, but I enjoy them nonetheless. Didn't you smoke when you were young?"
"In my day, everybody smoked. But those were different times young man. You should know better."
"I know."
"Well it doesn't matter. You should do whatever pleases you. Young people these days!"
"Thanks for the advice though, I know I should stop eventually. But I can't really commit myself to quitting. And plus, I've got other things on my mind at the moment."
"Young people these days..." And she just walked off.
I had no idea why I had just said so much. Usually I don't have much patience with old people, but I thought, as long as I'm buying time I might as well talk to people. And what I had said was true. I did have other things on my mind.
I sat there smoking for another two hours. Nobody else had bothered talking to me in that time. I had seen a few good looking women though. I had dropped out of university myself just a few months ago. I couldn't really adapt to the whole lifestyle, or it might just have been a bad choice of majors. I don't know really, all I can remember is just hating the place. I'd rather be doing a thousand other things than going to school. It was close to midday now and I wanted to do something else. I didn't want to go home yet, but I wanted to do something else. I had made up my mind on what time to arrive home, and I still had a good three hours left before I even had to start heading home. I used the public toilet building adjunct to the park and then headed back to my father's car.
I unlocked the car and got it. I found my cellphone on the floor and picked it up. I had missed twelve phone calls and I had about twice the number of unread messages. I really hate cellphones to be honest. Sure, they're handy from time to time when you want to get together with friends, but usually I was just annoyed by how it was interfere with things I was doing. Most of the time I just enjoyed be left alone. I threw my cellphone on the back seat and turned on the radio. The first station I chose was playing an awful song by Katy Perry so I changed the station. I had to change the station four times before I got something decent. It was a station playing The Doors and my mood slightly improved. I started the engine and drove off. I wanted to go to the beach and just hang around there before I had to head home. I could use some nice fresh salty air.
Whilst I was on my way to the beach, Neil Young was interrupted by a special broadcast. It was something about a family of three being shot dead during a burglary. I didn't want to hear any bad news so I just turned the radio off. It was close to one o'clock when I reached the beach. It was a pleasant enough day, but not really beach weather, so the beach was more or less deserted. I parked the car and headed towards the board-walk. I walked along the board-walk until I couldn't see any buildings any more. I took off my shoes and left them on the board-walk. I wanted to feel the sand between my toes. I found a nice little spot close to the shore line and sat down. I lit another cigarette. In the distance I could see a figure walking towards me. It was a person with a dog. When the figure came into range I could make out more details. It was a middle-aged woman. She didn't look too bad for her age. When she walked by me, her dog started sniffing at my feet.
"Sorry about that. He can never help himself," she said.
"Don't worry about it."
"What are you doing out here alone young man? If you don't mind me asking that is."
"Oh, not much really. I just don't want to go home right now."
"I know what you mean. It's a lovely day isn't it?"
"Yeah, it's great."
"Mind if I sit with you?"
I didn't mind at all. Up close she was quite attractive and she had some of the best tits I had seen the whole day. She was wearing a simple t-shirt with a sports bra underneath. She also had some denim hot pants on. Her legs were great as well.
"Go ahead," I replied.
She sat down next to me. Her dog had wondered off towards the beach. She started fiddling with the sand between her legs.
"Would you like one?" I asked whilst holding out my pack of cigarettes.
"Sure, it's been years since I've smoked. But I feel like having one right now." she replied.
After smoking in silence she made her move.
"So, since you've given my something. Maybe I should return the favour."
I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I thought to myself that this kind of thing only happens in films or books.
"What do you have to offer?" I stammered.
She then took of her shirt and bra, revealing some great tits. She then bent over and unzipped my pants. I could go into more detail, but the bottom line is that my mood was lifted to a point I never thought it would reach today. After doing the deed we said goodbye and both went our own ways. I was one lucky bastard. Nothing could bring me down after what had just happened so I headed towards the car. It was close to three o'clock now, so I headed home. The trip seemed very short, and I was probably grinning the whole way home. I still couldn't really believe what had just happened, but I rarely felt so happy. I was still grinning when I turned my car into my street. I was still grinning when I drove by a group of people all huddled together deep in conversation. I was still grinning when I drove by my neighbour's house. I stopped grinning when I stopped in front of my own house. Our yard was taped off with yellow police tape. Now, telling my parents about drinking the previous night was the last thing on my mind.

Monday 28 March 2011

Shorts

Hello there. For years now I have been practicing writing and I would like to share some of it with you guys out there. I will be writing some short stories on my blog for all of you to enjoy. Feel free to leave criticism or comments.

The breeze sure was welcome. The last few days had been so hot, it was very difficult to keep my clothes dry from sweat. Even the slightest movement drenched my clothes in sweat. It was all right now though. I was sitting under a tree reading a brand new copy of 'People' magazine. It's not that I like the magazine, but it was the only thing I could find in my stepfather's caravan. I was staying with him and my mother for the weekend. My stepfather was al lright, I guess, but what really bothered me was I couldn't really talk to him. He always treats me like as if I was a ten year old. I'm actually twenty-three years old, and the only reason why I'm still living with one of my parents is that I just got back from a two year trip around Africa.
After reading in the magazine for about five minutes I was already sick of it, and I started playing in the dirt with a stick. I wasn't thinking of anything in particular when I was approached by a young girl. I only noticed her when she blocked out the sun with her body. I looked up at her and she simply just stood there for a good minute or two. After our strange staring contest I broke the silence. "Hello?"
"What are you doing?" asked the girl. She was about eight years old, and she was sporting a queer little smile which made me quite uncomfortable. "I'm trying to stay out of the sun, that's all really", I replied. "What are you doing out her? Shouldn't you be at school?"
"It's summer holiday silly. I don't have school right now". She was right of course. I hadn't gone to school for at least three years and I had no idea when the summer holidays started or ended.
"You'll have to excuse me. I had no idea you kids were already on your summer holidays. I'm Jeremy, what's your name kid?" After asking my question she just ran off. I just sat there, dumbstruck, watching her run off towards the trailer park. After she disappeared I couldn't stop thinking about why she would run off like that. After giving myself five minutes to think about it, I dismissed it as a kid just being a kid. I can't remember how I thought when I was a kid, so I guess this was the best I could do. I rummaged in my pockets and came out with about seven bucks in small change. I counted it twice and then stored it back in the front pocket of my jeans. I stood up, leaving the magazine under the tree, and headed towards the town centre. I hadn't smoked in two years, but I could really use a cigarette now. I had been without work for two weeks and I hadn't been doing much. I needed a distraction.
It took me no longer than an hour to reach the place I was going to. The afternoon was coming to an end, and so was the insane heat. I had started sweating like a madman, but I felt OK. I was still confused about the young girl, although it wasn't bothering me as much as it did when it had just happened. I went into the corner shop and bought myself a pack of luckies. The guy behind the counter was a real prick, and he showed completely no interest in me, but it didn't bother me too much. After buying my cigarettes I went out front and took one out. I lit my cigarette and sat down on one of the benches in front of the shop. I sat there smoking cigarettes for a while, admiring the street. The town centre wasn't very big, but it had the necessary things. A barber, a small groceries, a tuck shop, a jewellers and several other small businesses. The town centre really was only a single street with a few alleyways.It was never very busy either, which made hanging around quite peaceful. After I'd smoked two cigarettes an old lady walked by. She was talking to herself and I was praying to god, although I don't believe in god, that she was pass me by without trying to start a conversation. I was lucky and she just mumbled by, lost in her own world.
Moments later, I saw the kid I met by the tree. She was standing across the street in the entrance of an alleyway next to a sports shop. She was staring at me again. After making sure she was looking at me I decided to go over to her. I crossed the street and just before I came in talking range she bolted in the alleyway. I started after her in a slow jog. Not really knowing why I was following her. It made me feel like Alice following the rabbit. Once I was in the alleyway, she was nowhere to be seen. I walked to the end of the alleyway, which came out on another street that was parallel to the street all the shops were on. The buildings on this street were all co-op houses. The young girl was standing on my side of the side-walk.
"What's up kid?" I asked her, and all she did was giggle.
She turned, and without looking, she started to cross the street. Before I even fully registered her displeasing giggle, the young girl was smashed to bits by a speeding pick-up truck. I instantly knew she hadn't survived the accident. A lot of people say that when they've experienced something terrifying, they just freeze. This didn't happen to me. I walked up to the spot where the pick-up had finally stopped. I went around the front to take a look at the damage, at this point I wasn't really thinking at all. It was as if my body was functioning on its own. The car itself had only a mildly damaged fender. Bits of hair, skin, clothing and bone clung to the most damaged part of the car. The amount of blood was not near as much as I would have expected, but nonetheless, the picture was pretty gruesome. The corpse, for it was most definitely a corpse, was completely unrecognisable. I remember just standing there, staring at what was left of the kid, just as she was staring at me the first time we met.
I don't think I will ever completely understand what had happened that day, but I'll never be able to stare at a kid again.

Friday 25 March 2011

Some screenplay writing

Hey there guys. I have been working on a screenplay idea with a friend of mine and I really wanted to get your opinion on what we have written so far. It is a bit old, and I doubt we are going to continue with it. I just thought you guys might be interested in it. Before ever completing a script I would like to do more of these short bits. Leave any tips you have for better scripts. Oh, and because I copied the piece, the whole format has changed. 




Julius Bakker

Screenplay by Niels Greven & Levi Blokdijk



2010 Draft



FADE IN:
INT. BAKKER’S HOUSE – JULIUS’ BEDROOM – EARLY AFTERNOON
The room is messy. Clothes lay scattered around the room. Wardrobe, computer and an average sized TV are present. A young man is lying in bed.
We’re watching JULIUS wake up. He picks up a t-shirt laying on the floor and puts it on. He sips water from a plastic bottle and then slowly walks towards his window.
JULIUS (V.O.)
It’s hard to say when it all began,
but if somebody would ask me to start
somewhere, today would be the day.
Not that I knew it at this moment,
but I would find out soon enough.

JULIUS opens his curtains and finds a pack of rolling tobacco. He plucks a rolling paper and starts to roll a cigarette. Whilst rolling his cigarette he stares out of his window enjoying the view of his average American neighborhood.
JULIUS (V.O.) (CONT’D)
My power obsessed dad thought it would
be a good idea to name me after somebody
that had achieved greatness in the hope
I would follow in that person’s footsteps.
My mom went along with the idea just because…
well, let’s just say she doesn’t like coming
between my dad and his
(sarcasm)
‘ideas’.
JULIUS lights his cigarette and notices a group of young men luring a cat and then kicking it away. The young men then start laughing of joy.
JULIUS (V.O.)
Oh look, there’s Johny. A perfect model
of the way a man should be. Masculine,
intelligent and not the least bit immature.
How I would love to be part of his posse.
It’s a shame that during high school I joined
the chess club instead of devoting my time
JULIUS (V.O.) (CONT’D)
to more character building enterprises like
beating up kids for their lunch money. 

JULIUS finishes his cigarette and puts out the butt in an ashtray. He notices his father in the backyard fiddling with the lawnmower. His father is obviously enraged.
JULIES’ mother screams from downstairs.
DENISE
Julius, could you come downstairs for
a moment. Your father has thrown one
of his fits again. You better come
downstairs.
JULIUS
What the fuck now?

DENISE
Watch your mouth Julius! And come
down here before it gets worse.
JULIUS (V.O.)
Yes, that’s me. Julius. Named after the
(sarcasm)
great
Julius Caeser. If only men of power
had been given regular names.
INT. BAKKER’S HOUSE – KITCHEN

DENISE
Good morning early bird Julius.

JULIUS opens the refrigerator and looks in and grabs a plate of food. He starts eating eagerly.
JULIUS
I’m not a bird.
DENISE
It’s not early either. Before you finish
your breakfast go and see what your father
wants.
JULIUS
Sure.
EXT. BAKKER’S HOUSE – BACKYARD
JULIUS’ father is constantly swearing whilst looking at his broken lawnmower. JULIUS exits the house through the backdoor. His father notices him approaching.
VINCE
(angry)
The thing’s only a week old. Fucking
piece of shit!

JULIUS
(obviously irritated)
That’s what you get for buying things
on sale. It’s always a rip-off in the
end. 

VINCE
You think you’re helping you little
smart-ass? The thing cost me more
than you’ll ever make in a year!
A beat.
VINCE
It’s got to be the blade! I’ll need a new
one and you’re going to get it for me boy.

JULIUS
(still irritated)
It’s your lawnmower. Get the bloody thing
yourself.

VINCE
(enraged)
What do you ever do around this place?
Nothing but lounging around, smoking cigarettes
and coming up with bullshit things to say! It’s
about time you did something for your parents!
JULIUS
What kind of blade do you want then?
VINCE
I need a 32 inch Dixon low lift blade.
You got that?
JULIUS
Yeah, yeah. A 32 inch low lift blade.
VINCE
(annoyed)
Dixon!
JULIUS
Yes boss. I have my mother’s genes,
not yours.

VINCE
(angry again)
Get out of my sight before I really get
pissed off! I don’t want to see you again
until you have my blade!
JULIUS (V.O.)
Arguing with an enraged father is like
swimming upstream. It just wears you out
and you’re better off stopping before you
get started.
EXT. BAKKER’S HOUSE – FRONT YARD
The camera is centered on the front and zooms out when JULIUS comes out. The camera then loops around and follows JULIUS whilst he exits his front yard and starts walking down the street. Children are outside playing with toys. JULIUS
JULIUS

Thursday 24 March 2011

Culture

Culture, culture ... culture. Culture has always puzzled me. We are all living in a very technologically advanced world, yet the differences between countries is still immense. If you were to take the time travelling across Europa alone, you would come across many different people abiding their own cultural background. Even though, these people all have access to telephones, internet and even the mail, to come in contact with different inhabitants of our planet. Yet, all these countries still have their own individual culture. Each country has their our national form of music, way of dressing, language, art, architecture, humour, etc. You would say, in such modern times people would stop trying to form their own groups, but actually achieve as a whole, on a planetery level. He all have the resources to do so, yet all these different countries cling to their culture as if it were their first born child. I am not necessarily saying I am opposed to countries having their own culture, for culture creates a certain diversity which can be very interesting at times. But, I am surprised that we all do have our own individual cultures. Where does this mindset of having to be different from the others come from? It is only standing in the way of dealing with major international problems such as war, poverty, hunger, polution, largely increasing number of people, just to state several of the many. Now some you might say this is not true, and it might not be. But, I think culture is keeping us down as a race.

I would like to leave it at that, and ask for all the people who have read this to give their opinion. I want to get a discussion going, for I am very interested in what you guys think. People with questions or ideas can comment on this blog.

Saturday 19 March 2011

Continuing...

So, with my previous blog I stated the difference in the things we like. Now I know my previous post might have come across as a bit lengthy and for that I apologize. As I want to finish of this line of though, I will keep this blog short as well.

What got me thinking though is that fact that our brains are so similar, yet so different. An example; When I look watch a film I pay attention to all kinds of things. Like the way the sets have been created, the use of special effects, acting, camera angles and I could go on for a while. Whilst watching a film I ask myself certain questions on what the director must have been thinking of when he made certain choices, or how brilliant some script writers are. On the other hand there are other people. These people simply watch a film and do not give it a lot of thought. Afterwards if you ere to ask them in depth questions on the film, they would be unable to answer your questions. Now, this is just one example. I will give you one more; I see two people sitting on a bus together. They are having a conversation, whilst using their phones to listen to music without having to use earphones. They are using horrible language in front of children, and it is quite obvious the other passengers are annoyed by their behaviour. I can not help but to start thinking about what happened in these people's lives that led to them show such poor social behaviour. I take several facts into consideration, such as ethnic background, age, gender, possible schooling etc. Now I am pretty sure a lot of people just perceive what is happening and choose to give the young people a harsh look, and most likely curse them in their own minds and then just leave it at that. These are just two examples, but I could name several hundreds. And the examples do not stop as simple social conduct problems, but I mean such differences as most of us experience on democratic nationalities. A very good example are politics. All these different individuals with their own little parties all have their own ideals. It is very obvious that the way human beings think varies in many possible ways. This line of thought led me to thinking about why humans think in completely different ways. This thought of why, led me to start thinking about our future, and that is what I was trying to say in my previous blogs.

My conclusion on the why is very vague, for I am no expert on the matter. I should do more reading on human thinking patterns when I get the time. But things that came into mind are mainly the upbringing of a person. Whether or not the individual has been challenging to think about problems as a child. Other matters such as talents, and the expertise level of a new born child. There are several more factors, but I do not want to go writing them all down. All these factors are of importance for a human being when developing a cognitive approach to every day life.

Now, at our modern day and age there are huge differences in the way we think. And to come back on evolution, I believe that the next main step for our race, is for our minds to evolve. Eventually, in an ideal situation, all human beings will have the same cognitive capacity as one another. Only when this happens, will we ensure the survivability of our race.

I hope most of you have been able to follow my blog on the matter. I am quite aware I have made spelling and grammar mistakes, and I would like to take these few lines to apologize for them. When writing about my thoughts I am not fond of going back on them and making alterations. This may confuse the reader when reading my blogs as one. Just take that in mind when you read any of my future blogs. Thanks for your time, and please comment and keep reading.

Friday 18 March 2011

Continuing on last night's thoughts

A few weeks ago I was watching television, something I very rarely do. Television is something I try to avoid, for it is simply boring as hell to me. The amount of advertisements, the uncountable reruns of certain programs and the main reason why I dislike television is the way everybody presents themselves. Nearly every single person in the television business. The way reailty programs show people who should most definitely not represent reality is quite sickening to me. Although, the people might actually be close to what reality is for most, but not for me. It is quite funny though, that there are so many reality series. The sad thing is though, that these programs exist because there is a market for them. People do actually watch these programs, and that is what worries me.

So, back to my point. A few weeks ago I was watching a reality show they broadcast here in the Netherlands. I think it is about several people living in a house, trying to guess each other's secret. It is very big brother like. I was dazzled by the useless conversations the people were having with each other. I could not help but keep wondering why anybody would want to watch this trash, but evidently people do watch it. What this made very clear to myself was that the way people think varies enormously. Me being person A, is completely not interested in the program, for I consider the conversations to be very dull and simple. Person B, somebody else that does actually enjoy the program, is sitting in their living room, watching the program and he/she is propelled by the conversations the people on the show are having. This is a good example of two different ways of thinking. The one enjoys the program and the other does not. A very good example of difference in interests. Difference in interests is something I can accept, for I would never judge somebody based simply on their interests.

The forementioned example displays differentials in people's interests. Why I gave you this example is because I do not want you to mistake it with what I will tell you in my next blog. I have other pressing obligations at the moment so I will have to come back on it, yet again.

Thursday 17 March 2011

Evolution of man

Now, I know the theory of evolution is a topic well talked about, but I would like to add my thoughts on the matter. Now, I do not wish to speculate on the past course of evolution. Much has been said and I am quite possitive most people know what we are talking about when we discuss the theory of evolution.

What I have been occupied with lately is the future evolution of human beings. First of all I just want to state that I highly doubt the further evolution of man, for I think us human beings will destroy our own race before we can let evolution take its cause and help us improve ourselves. It is just the way we function. There are many flaws in being human. For one, we are very emotionally complicated creatures, and very often act upon these emotions with much thought. The combination of having a brilliant brain capacity and emotions will evidently prove to be a very self destructive one. A second flaw is that no single human thinks in exactly the same way. One might think of this to be a possitive, but I see it as being a major flaw in our existence. If we can not think as one, we will eventually fail to secure our future as a race. This second fact can be perceived in every day life. It can be seen as minor differentials such as the variation of clothing choice, brand choice, social interaction and I could go on. A third flaw can be the modern day cultural differences, which have and most likely will always exist. In the past cultural differences have led to wars of gigantic proportion, and I believe that in the end this will be the main factor in our very own destruction.

There are several more factors which might lead to our own extinction, but I am not going to list all of my thoughts, for I would rather proceed with the matter at hand. So, lets say that we do not destroy ourselves, and we find a way to survive on this planet for a long period of time. If we were able to survive long enough for there to be an obvious evolution within our race, I truly think it will be a mental based evolution, as opposed to a physical change. Of course there might be small changes. For example our bodies needing less maintanence, our bodily functions adapting themselves to the current state of our planet etc.

No, I really think our heads contain the most room for improvement. If given time I think we will be capable of doing things we can not even start to imagine. I think our way of thinking will have less variations, and that people will all eventually start losing emotions. Emotions being such a random factor of life, for us to evolve it will be ultimately vital for our emotions to lose importance. Human beings will have to base their decisions on logic, and not on impulses or feelings. The cognitive thought process will most likely improve as well. To explain this concept it is best to compare the human brain with a computer. Computers send and receive date, they translate this data, store the data, copy the data etc. The human brain does more or less the same thing. Given enough time it would only seem logical for our brains to expand on their thinking capabality. This means that all our thoughts will be just that bit faster. You can imagine this being very handy when in conversation with somebody. It will seem as if you have more time to think about what you want to say next, for your brain would be working harder on the matter. If we would let evolution run its course long enough, the outcome could be quite scary. The human brain being so fast that you could calculate possible outcomes of conversations before they even take place. I think this will eventually lead to simplified communication, for everybody would be able to understand each other a lot sooner.

For now I will have that, it is getting quite late and I can not really focus on what I am typing, let alone what I am thinking. If I have made any spelling or grammar mistakes, I ask for your forgiveness. For I have not taken the time to reread what I have written.

I will be continuing on this line of thought soon. Feel free to react. I would appreciate any thoughts on the matter.

Wednesday 16 March 2011

Back already

I have figured out how to post now, so my test is a bit irrelevant. And I appologize for that.

I just returned from what I was doing. It was obviously less time consuming than I thought it would be. I am currently wondering how people will ever find my blogs. I give the site a more thurough lookthrough. Before I just keep spewing random thought which are entirely not productive I will start talking about more interesting thoughts, interesting in at leats my opinion, I have been having lately.

The internet has always amazed me as how it can be very useful at times, and yet very dissapointing at others. I mean, the amount of trash that can and will be found on the internet is horrifying to say the least. I don't even dare count the useless hours I have spent watching people make complete fools of themselves or say and do things that are never going to help me in any way. This thought has led me to the thinking about the logical course of things. Are we ever going to get out of this human era, where as everybody is wasting their time on pointless occupations, or are we just going to stick to what we are doing. The whole situation might eventually worsen, and this is what I am most afraid of. The introduction on tosh.0 or whatever it is called, has completely worsened the situation. You are now able to simply watch youtube material on your television set.
I have started talking about internet and the progression or degression it will experience in the future, but my worries actually go out a lot further. I am very worried about the state western cultures are in. Every single human being seems to be obsessed with all the wrong things.
It is very hard to express all my thoughts in this single blog, and I am experiencing major difficulties as to how I am going to tackle this line of thought. For the time being I will give the matter more thought, and I will put these on paper (in this case the web obvious) in the recent future. For time at the moment is quite short. It is close to dinner time.

I am sorry I have not been very elaborate on the matter yet, but I promise you more in the near future.

Just a test

My last blog was not updated, and I have no reason why. I'll just be typing this short message to see if my blog gets posted or not. It may seem silly, but I truly need to get to the bottom of this.

My first blog

What a strange thing I have been brought into. I have never 'blogged' before, because I never really thought anybody at all would be interested in what I think about. On a whim, I decided to give it a shot. I have been writing in my personal time more frequently lately, and I figured this would be a good way to practice my English.
I am currently short on time, but I will try to blog some more very soon.

That is it for now.